Twinkling
my first step-dad was a trucker
(and PLO refugee)
who drove a rusted heap
of a Mack on its third engine
on a cold Chicago night
in a south-side neighborhood
long left for dead
parked
in an empty lot
across from a Steak & Egger
a dark, round lot attendant
pounded his fat fist
on the truck's door
overhead
blare of traffic
groans of metal
we could see his breath
frozen smoke-ghosts
as he stood at our feet
and yelled up
shaking a finger
"y'all motherfuckers need to
the truck or I'm calling the
daddy freed his cock
and began to hose a stream
that would shame a rhino
aiming for the ‘nigger's’
and a pure raucous glee contorted his
cackling face
against a backdrop of weepy
streetlights and sober night
the arc of his piss
twinkling
Birth Canal Mona calls me a closet fag I tried to squeeze the salve There’s a silence in the new in the idyllic calm which let the ambient noise
because I find so much
I know she's jealous
and the living owe the dead
Such imagined debt results in
that makes neither any
Up all night
and produced only flatulent
like spent mustard
only the scent emerged
and a bit of spit.
all the shuffles of my
like a hyper-sensitively-
frightening
unsafe
something horrific pends
and Mona's frail hand
mine like so much tepid meat
she leads me across the
and we don't look both ways
to that diner with the cheap
and cigarettes
and the nice old Lithuanian
who will speak softly in
and I'll sit and read the
and Mona will fly into the
and sparkle a moment in the
like a butterfly gum wrapper
and the music will stop
wash me clean
as a licked kitten.